Hi my name is Karmar and I am a victim of knife crime.
I and my brother were stabbed by friends while he drank a bottle of wine
My brother was killed by his own friends in 2018.
My brother carried a knife so some say he deserved what happened to him
His murderer was caught but he never told us why
He mocked my mum as she started to cry
He laughed and told my mum “well I still win, I am not the one in my grave I am alive”.
He winked at me and walked away grinning and doing a little jive.
I remember the look, it’s in my head, I will never forget his face.
I hope he never forgets mine too, he laughed harder when mum said you’re a disgrace
When I heard my brother had died I became very upset,
Something seemed to leave me, but anger took set
I was wondering what was going on and I felt very very sad
The more I thought on it, the angrier I became, I felt myself getting mad
I wanted to leave and see my brother but I was scared to see him dead
I just remembered him playing with me and taking me to the shops instead.
My mum picked me up later and told me he was dead, she was screaming
She was screaming to everyone, no one could comfort I just thought what a thing
Everyone joined in, I was just crying I did not know what to say so just cried
My head could not understand or comprehend why my brother had died
I was more sad for my mum than I was for me because she cried a lot
Her tears still make me feel upset because her crying does not seem to stop
I still cry but I cry in secret because I don’t want anyone to see me
I think my mum is still cross but I don’t think I feel angry
I never want to see the boy that killed my brother as I know then I will be angry
I will want to avenge his death and beat out all my misery
I don’t even want to write this post as I want to stop talking about it
I want someone to find the right solution that can work and really fit
Around all young people no matter of there colour or creed
I want to open stories and positive things I have to read
Put up posters to warn people about how death makes you feel
Murder does not end in death of one, everyone’s life it tries to steal
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